yesterday was a total disastrous epic in my life where everything seemed to
go wrong with the exception of my semester's results. would have
perish in oblivion if not fer the latter.
my hair is a mess now; i have to spend a few more to straighten it. argh.
it looks like a freaking maggi and i loathe it. this is the worse hair i've ever had.
no more perming. and yes i failed my freaking tp with an immediate failure;
never in my pracs had i mount or strike the kerb at the 's' course but
why yesterday? why?
thanks to it i lost all motivation and accumulated all kinds of points along the way
mounting up to 20 demerit points. haha. whats the use, i have failed big anyway.
but to look on the bright side the favourite boys in ssdc
(sorry, my college mat! haha) gave me way while i was in the circuit,
signalling hands at me and stuffs. and i am still able to meet them til 9 november.
(: haha am i happy or what!
on a serious note, im dreadfully sorry if i have let anyone down esp fana and aca
because they no longer have an extra driver this raya. ):

and c++ tuition with the college mat the day before wasnt wasted; i learnt along
the way and truthfully it was much easier than c#. told the college mat i am
a c-sharper whenever i cudnt solve some questions. hahahah easier to give up.
the college mat accompanied me fer my last driving revision at ssdc in
the evening; i did well but somehow im not too sure what
happened on the real day itself. oh well.
(i told him i failed and he said its ok. its only the first fer me anw. haha)
am focusing on my ibm exam next week! and not to forget the raya outings i will
be having with the chocs and fellow nyp-ians. (:

omg we have four more days left before raya! omg omg!
and the best thing is that my house is not even half-finished with the cleaning,
whats more with the putting up of curtains, new cushion covers and the waterfall
which had graced the living room fer twelve years is no longer there.
great. it feels freaking quiet = weird.
anyway this is my last week in nus-soc, oh well not really coz i still gain access
to the software engrng lab til the end of the year.
and lately i just dont feel like continuing to uni after i graduated ):
thanks to all the stories of everyday hard-mugging and ica (latter is not scary actulli)
all year round. and the competition to get good grades. OMG.
oh maybe i should look on the bright side. the college mat (i like referring him using
this term!) says prolly engrng and sciences faculties are like that unlike
the arts stream. and also because most of the pple i made friends with are from
those faculties. haha. totally one sided, yo.

why is uniqlo such a haunt? whatever that i had eyed on but didnt manage to buy always
manage to haunt me in my sleep. like the jacket. and now its the blouse. grr.
tp driving test is next week! omg omg! had last min revision ytd and it was a good
one coz i simply miss the atmosphere. haha. and abg moto! (how come the college
mat doesnt sound jelaous over this? hah!)
and on the same day i have ibm db2 trng from 9am onwards. great, just great.
to add on, im going to the salon after the whole fiasco to do something about my hair.
haha next week is pretty busy i guess. aside from my tp, ibm db2 trng,
visit to the salon, hari raya visitings, work at sb (!!), driving revisions, tutor the
college mat on c++ etc, we have the nypians' raya outing! ((:

till then, treasure the last few days of ramadhan (night of decree) and salam aidilfitri! (:
i may be blogging on the morning of raya (unlikely!) and fer now im tuning into
raya songs to get in the mood. haha.

was invited to sit in fer a lecture by the prof himself yesterday, something
about software dvlpt and conquering their complexity.
it was amazing that i didnt find any time to doze off or get bored seeing that
it was my first lecture i've attended fer the past seven months. haha.
and the lecture hall was not even half-filled. imagine that.
the irony? it was a project lecture fer third-year undergraduates yet
they all looked like the first-years in nyp! hahaha we had a good laugh over that.
its not even them, the whole lot in nus looked like typical poly students!
arent they supposed to look more matured and menancingly intelligent or
something? oh well. its either me or them then.

i think yesterday was not a waste. we took the internal shuttle bus from nus
business school all the way to school of computing.
the ride at uni hall/ library was freaking scary; my heart nearly leapt out of
my mouth when the bus was ramming up on the slope.
haha. someone complained i've become very distant refusing to hang out
with the usual clique anymore. well, sad to say i am.
probably i need self-actualization. and need to get over this fatigue.
anyway today is the day. (: and today might be the last day i will ever meet you
or the opposite. fact is that im tired of these facades and
want to go back normal, just like the others because in my dictionary there
is no such term as 'open relationship'. hah.